No puedo dormir…(3 de agosto 2009)

It is about one in the morning my time and I just got back from being out with a group for a little bit. I’m not very tired and can’t sleep so I figured I would write a little bit until I get tired. I don’t have to be up as early as I usually do since my morning class is over. It has been nice to sleep in past 6:30 for the past 2 mornings. That is one thing that I am not sure I will ever be able to get used to when I am officially out in the real world. I have adjusted actually relatively well considering I’m not a morning person at all. I would like to try however, to get up before 8am when I return home in order to get my day started, start a devotion and try to work out before my classes begin. I’ve had some very odd dreams during the past week which all have been very vivid, and for some reason I feel is supposed to mean something even if I don’t understand the meaning behind it right away. I know that sounds very strange but I too have felt slightly strange lately, like not myself, not in a bad way so to speak just different. It is somewhat hard to describe I guess. As I’ve met many new people all who are unique and people who I would not necessarily be friends with at school or at home have impacted me in some way while I have been here. Most of us have health care in common but other than that we are all different. Being in Costa Rica, I have seen that even though the country is divided into “certain areas” everyone is relatively the same. In our country however, you go to one part of the country and it appears very different than the part where you are from. We are supposed to embrace these differences and have pride in them since that is what makes us America, but are we all too different and believe in too many different things to where it hurts our country as a whole??? We have many different languages, many different cultures, different beliefs, etc. don’t get me wrong, I love that I am an American and I take great pride in our country and that I get to be a citizen of our country. It is hard though sometimes to look at the fact that we seem to be divided very easily on many different things. The last time that we all came and stood together was during 9/11. Why does it take a tragedy for our citizens to embrace family, and friends and to realize what the important things in life are where the majority of the other countries in the world don’t have that problem? We all take so many things for granted every day, but what I’ve learned here is that people care about the important things in life more. We say that we are a diverse country, but in reality we don’t like to accept diversity or get accustomed to other peoples’ ways of life or other countries’ cultures. During this time here, I have realized how truly blessed I am. I have been given so many wonderful opportunities, and even though I haven’t had an easy life I realize that if life was easy I wouldn’t have been living or have grown into to the person I have become today. There is always someone worse off than me, and I am so thankful to have people in my life who love me and support me and encourage me on a daily basis. Hasta pronto...